Category Archives: Ruminations

12/21/2011

Winter Solstice What do I want to work on in this week’s Group? What difficulties and challenges do I currently struggle with? 1.  MONEY.  Why must I always battle with poverty and financial humiliation and distress?  How do I change … Continue reading

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11/6/2011

And I have come to a grinding halt.  I have not done a thing these past two weeks but sit here, depressed.  I’ve slept a lot, watched TV a lot; have only done what’s been absolutely required like getting Dalton to … Continue reading

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10/22/2011

I had a strange, somewhat disturbing dream last night: My mother was here.  And my sister; they were talking together in her room like they used to. Dalton and his friend, Zak, were in another room playing, asking me if they … Continue reading

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10/17/2011

Here is when I first started my Blog.  I only made a few entries and then ended up losing everything.  But I didn’t really lose it, for here it is: 10/17/2011.  This week started out with my feeling depressed, anxious, discouraged, frustrated, … Continue reading

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Community Crawl

The Aqus Community Crawl I must write about Saturday evening’s entertainment:  Community Crawl I missed the first stop, the Petaluma Bounty’s 4th Annual Bounty Harvest Party, at 55 Shasta Avenue, which was supposed to start the Crawl off at 5:00 and go … Continue reading

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6/15/2011

(re the “Pause”) Well, well – and where am I now?  I think that I am going through so many changes so much these days, it’s like I figure out who I am and what I’m all about – and … Continue reading

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5/6/2011

There are some things on my mind that I want to address – perhaps with Molly.  (1)   About MONEY:  But what is there to discuss?  I am hanging in there; something will change for the better. A NEW THOUGHT:  To … Continue reading

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4/22/2011

ADHD THOUGHTS… Thinking about how, over these last few years, I have been learning how to “train my brain” to use my time wisely and be “intentional;” I have learned how to schedule myself to do certain tasks at certain … Continue reading

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Our Deepest Fear

I found this quote on a piece of paper in my files one day, but I am not sure where I got it.  I believe it was probably given to me by Molly at one of our Groups.  It is … Continue reading

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“Mate”

MATE I want to look into your eyes and see your Soul. And for you to read between the lines and find my soul there, waiting for you. You must be tall, but not too much; I want to lean … Continue reading

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“Lethargy”

LETHARGY What to do when the Lethargy slithers in… My body’s stuck in mud and gloom (Or have I perhaps just left my body?)    But where is my head?  It’s foggy here. Depression lurks nearby.  And I cannot move … Continue reading

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Christmas 2009

And here is a letter I wrote to distant family members; I have always admired those who managed to write annual Christmas letters, so I thought I would give it a try.  But, I think perhaps it’s just not “my … Continue reading

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FENG SHUI

In my efforts to try to “fix” my environment, I am reading about ‘Feng Shui’ and have decided where to make some changes: Here are some books, purchased in March 2008, for this process: Clear Your Clutter With Feng Shui … Continue reading

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“Demon of Time”

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The Unreality of Time

Here is something I found, written by John Ellis McTaggart, in 1908.  This is quite a challenge to wrap your brain around!  There are also a number of typos, especially towards the end, which make it even more of a … Continue reading

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“Time Warps”

10/7/2009 I have lately decided that, instead of focusing on what I do wrong or what my failings and shortcomings are, I will focus on the things I do right; I check in with myself periodically and give myself validation … Continue reading

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“Bob”

He sees things in black and white I’m all the colors in between. He lives among the trees and hills; I live in a castle built of stone. He sees a thing for what it is. I see it for … Continue reading

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9/24/2009

When I get up in the morning, I often have odd things just pop into my head out of nowhere.  Sometimes it will be songs or parts of songs that I haven’t heard for decades.  Other times it will be … Continue reading

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9/22/2009

I just re-read the things I wrote last week about ADD and giftedness, etc.  I love to research, learn, and explore new ideas.   And I am recalling the sense of “bliss” and serenity that I experienced for the better part … Continue reading

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“ADD” vs. “Gifted”

9/16/09 I have recently felt compelled to do some research on an issue that has me feeling some consternation and confusion.  There has apparently been a debate going on regarding how one can differentiate between children who are “gifted” and … Continue reading

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9/16/2009

And where do I begin? OK – here is a thing I do not like:  I try to get on top of a schedule, to plan my days and schedule my time, in an effort to accomplish as much as I … Continue reading

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STATE OF OVERWHELM

Sometimes it’s hard just to remember to breathe… Daily/normal – continuous – parenting, groceries, garbage duty, meal prep, packing lunches, dishes, driving, school, homework, play-dates  sports and activity scheduling, volunteering, constant house upkeep, enlisting Dalton’s help to do things, or not … Continue reading

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“Money Doesn’t Buy Happiness”

Here is a song that dropped into my head one day.   The Universe threw me a bone – it jumped out and I had to hurry to the paper to catch it.  The “story” that came to mind with … Continue reading

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3/14/2009

We’re working on the “Integrity Tone Scale” – and in a discussion about “Fear,” we are asked to write about the following: Fear of Catastrophic Outcome I don’t believe I’ve ever let fear stop me from doing something I’ve wanted … Continue reading

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3/4/2009

Three little things I want to make note of this a.m.: Last night in an email, my sister said, “ah… to be a kid – the exquisite enjoyment of stomping in puddles.”  I like that. Then when I got up … Continue reading

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